strength

A great man said to me some time ago…

“I vow to give you the support needed without complaint or resignation, for that is my significance in life and the reason for my existence, I want you to touch me, feel me, giving to you, unseen, for as long as you need me, for I embrace the weight of your worlds, unselfishly”

I would say it has taken a long time to understand what he was really saying but I was not listening. Maybe it was because I was not ready to understand. It is a love unconditional, a free love with no limits. How blessed I was and how blessed I am to have had such a person in my life when I needed them most. I know my Higher Power set this person in my path. And yet, until they left my pathway, did I realize how much he was really showing me the way.

I don’t know if anyone else thinks the way I do, but to me each relationship I have with anyone.. Good or bad, leaves a mark on me and the good ones, leave me with something that can not be replaced by any other in this world, some marks stronger than others, more noticeable than others.. As with him, there will be no one ever who will or can hold a candle to what he meant to me over that entire 3 years, how forever all that it was will be stored in a most treasured spot.. My heart.. He has encouraged nothing but good in my being and for that I will be forever thankful.

I have learnt how to love, let go, and open my heart to love again. And I’ve survived those heart-wrenching, gut-twisting break-ups that slam a person to the ground and rip you to pieces whether by a loved one dying or deciding they do not or can not be with me.. All things out of my control.

I read some where this quote..”You are a link, that to me, will never go missing.” – Unknown

How often do we feel that way about some one in our lives? And how many people go through their lives never feeling that way at all about another?

I have chosen to forgive pain in my life and see how it may have benefited me instead of suffering from it. And I will always remember who has brought some kind of love to my life, for there is many kinds of love. For every separation, I have made a connection to a greater source.. My Higher Power and to me, that is healing.

As the great Ram Dass has said, ‘Keep in mind these fours words, I am loving awareness.”

I do believe that at the end of the day it is all about the unseen love of feelings.