The Wheels Of Life Go Round & Round!

I am reading aritcles/books with regards to the human thought process, spirituality, issues, recovery ideas and overall the human condition. Having worked at the addictions centre, I did read the big book, those years ago, as well as study the program and the steps. I have been going over some of what I learnt, gathering information regarding, even coming upon The Big Book, a few day ago at a sale and buying it to read again. I have been reading, Canadian Addiction surveys, from difference sources..
” About 1 in 10 Canadians has these styles of heavier drinking, with significantly
higher percentages in the four Atlantic Provinces and in
Alberta. For a country of Canada’s size and diversity, there is considerable convergence in findings across provinces regarding the prevalence of alcohol and “illicit” drug use and related harms. There are also important differences in terms of levels and patterns of use, and risk of harms that are of significance not only to researchers, but to decision makers and ultimately to all Canadians.”
.. what caught my eye in that articles was the, 1 in 10 Canadians having this life style, to a point where it may cause harm to the user and their relationships. You love the addict, but hate the disease and that is why ALANON is out there and of course AA for the addict, themselves. No one is perfect. Addictions are diseases, not just in alcohol or drugs, but food, sex, etc. Then we have the mental labels/disorders, such as depression and bipolar, then the physical ailments such as, convulsions, auto-immune diseases and more.
So if statistics are showing, 1 in 10 have alcohol and drug issues, the other 9 maybe have the mental, physical, the gene pool maladies, leaving you a population of ailing people..lol.. and I am one of them and so is the other person on your right, and on my left. 😉 I think the world needs to be more compassionate with each other, stop being so dam judgemental!
The old saying, no one knows what goes on behind closed doors or don’t judge a book by its cover, should be more than just words! We need to take action. Read up on maladies of human kind, understand more of what others are going through. Because some day, you just may be the person who wishes, others were not so judgemental, if your life took a 360 turn, for the not so better.
Don’t take your health for granted, mental, physical and or spiritual. Some body loves you just the way you are!
Next week, to re-read, The Big Book, is on my agenda, of understanding. And remember, tomorrow is another day, to get it right and the day after that and after that and…  😉

Born A Sinner?

We’re all born innocent, I believe. But how long into our lives on this earth, before we commit one of those 7 deadly sins? No one informed me as a toddler, a youngster, pre-teen about these deadly sins. And another thing, I’m still alive! Does that mean I am still innocent? Who has the answers to these questions and who is keeping tabs on me? Dagnabit! ;).. and who made this list anyway?

7 Deadly Sins

  1. Pride
  2. Envy
  3. Gluttony
  4. Lust
  5. Anger
  6. Greed
  7. Sloth

Pride aka ego, is excessive belief in one’s own abilities.

Envy is the desire for others’ traits, status, abilities, or situation.

Gluttony is an addictive type desire to consume more than that which one requires.

Lust is an inordinate craving for the pleasures of the body.

Anger is manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury.

Greed is the desire for material wealth or gain, forgetting about the spiritual.

Sloth is the avoidance of physical or spiritual work

Summer Vacay!!

Sitting here sipping my 1st coffee, trying to think of a trip as a family we may have taken when I was a wee gal.. and my mind goes blank..because our parents didn’t spend that kind of money..they had 11 children! We were our own Disney Land, or circus freak show..lol..I think I will blame, things got tough when “they” came along, the 4 Little ones.. haha.. we couldnt afford to do anything then..lol..But I do recall being sent to bible camp 😦 when we lived in Elliot Lake. Joey, my brother a year older than I, was suppose to come with me, at the last minute he cried saying he didn’t want to go. Ohh I was mad. And Mom bought me 2 sets of pjs from Kresgees, flannel ones, to find they were too small when I went to wear a set my 1st night there. omg!!. And there was no such thing as cell phones. There was Emergency phone numbers on your application for the camp leaders only. So I was bored! but survived by tossing a big wad of bubble gum across the dark bedroom to land in the hair of the snotty blond girl in the bunk next to mine..I be bad.. she cried and the leader yelled out, who shot thid gum??!! I turned over and cried, because that was one of those moments I hated Mom for sending me away.. so I took my pencil I wrote on my bedsheet.. I hate you Mom!.. Didn’t matter, she wasn’t washing these sheets and wouldn’t see that..lol. I am not sure if my older brothers, Darcy, Geno or Joey went on any summer vacays or not. But at the end of the summer, we had memories, whether away from home or not. And now my children take their babes, my nuggets on summer vacays, making memories, as for toting along cell phones.. I wish everyone took one weekend away with their spouse and children..NO CELLS.. or electronics.. start listening to eachothers voices again, hear what they are really saying.. express like we use to do, with out loud belly laughs, screaming with laughter as you play tag, sing a song in the car as you motor along, introduce yourselves to the family in the camper parked next to yours at the campground.. go swimming! Just do stuff without the mechanics. Do you recall a vacay good or bad that you can share? Family or alone… as a child??

My Trail Mix

me4I started walking this path the day I was born, but it did not become a reality for me until 2005 and I don’t think it will ever end.

My belief in something greater than myself.. a Goddess, a God, a Creator.

This Creator of mine is not who/what my parents believed in, the schools or churches I went to as a child. This Creator is something/someone who was with me through all my own life experiences, the most recent since 2005. My Creator has brought me comfort and salvation through lessons and unconditional love.  My Creator showed me, my own strength.

Until the day comes when we all hit our bottoms or begin searching for peace of mind, soul and body, the Creator awaits without judgement, arms wide open and guidance.

I found my Creator between the Wicca teachings and my native culture. I am fulfilled and humbly grateful.

 

 

Here I Am!!

Such a great feeling, yet I have this difficulty explaining exactly just what that feeling is… living in the moment…

So many friends and family are always planning for the future, I don’t. I have learnt to live in this moment. And at times, I do need to self check myself, when I find myself leaning towards, sad or feeling depressed. 99% of the time, when I am feeling that way, it is because I was dwelling on the past or expecting more of tomorrow. So one learns and forms the mindset.. I can’t change yesterday and realistically, I can’t predict tomorrow.

Here I am, happy! Most of the time, excessively.  I came across a small write up with regards to living in the now and wanted to share with you, because it states pretty much, the definition of doing that.. for myself anyway.

The Eternal Present!!

“Be Here Now! Realize deeply that the present moment is all you ever have! Waiting is a state of mind. Basically, it means that you want the future; you don’t want the present. You don’t want what you’ve got, and you want what you haven’t got. With every kind of waiting, you unconsciously create inner conflict between your here and now, where you don’t want to be, and the projected future, where you want to be. This greatly reduces the quality of your life by making you lose the present.

There is nothing wrong with striving to improve your life situation. You can improve your life situation, but you cannot improve your life. Life is primary. Life is your deepest inner Being. It is already whole, complete, perfect. Your life situation consists of your circumstances and your experiences. There is nothing wrong with setting goals and striving to achieve things. The mistake lies in using it as a substitute for the feeling of life, for Being. The only point of access for that is the Now.

Have you ever experienced, done, thought, or felt anything outside the Now? Do you think you ever will? Is it possible for anything to happen or be outside the Now? The answer is obvious, is it not?

Nothing ever happened in the past; it happened in the Now.
Nothing will ever happen in the future; it will happen in the Now.
What you think of as the past is a memory trace, stored in the mind, of a former Now. When you remember the past, you reactivate a memory trace – and you do so now. The future is an imagined Now, a projection of the mind. When the future comes, it comes as the Now. When you think about the future, you do it now. Past and future obviously have no reality of their own. Just as the moon has no light of its own, but can only reflect the light of the sun, so are past and future only pale reflections of the light, power, and reality of the eternal present. Their reality is “borrowed” from the Now.

The essence of what I am saying here cannot be understood by the mind. The moment you grasp it, there is a shift in consciousness from mind to Being, from time to presence. Suddenly, everything feels alive, radiates energy, emanates Being. -ET”

I Don’t Recall

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“It’s like riding a bike, you never forget.”

I don’t believe that quote anymore, as I age.

There is many things I don’t recall how to do or what I did to achieve a positive outcome. Timing is every thing, it helps us forget and helps us remember. I ask a lot of questions of friends and family (Mom use to call me a, Question Box) and a lot of the time, the answer is, “I don’t remember.”

And what about the  younger generation?  Who think they know everything. I think I have forgotten more than they know, I just don’t recall half of what I know.

Memories are an important part of my life, I don’t live in the past, but I don’t want to forget it either. Because Mom had dementia and I do recall her frustration when she could not recall something.  So, I will keep talking, asking questions and probing for answers. I love google!!..lol…

Keep sharp, be that 2 year old who constantly ask questions. You never know what you could learn, if you listen. But that is another subject, eh?. 😉

Where was I going with this

Moderation Is Key!

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I am one of those people, well, maybe I am only the one of the people I am talking about.. lol.. I doubt that. I don’t feel I am unique in every way and the way that I am unique, I won’t tell you about, that my friend, is what makes me unique. There are some things I do not need the approval of being, by any one, on this planet. So I have that little bit of mystery, which I think we all should have, mystery.
I have learnt over the years, the thing to enjoying life, no matter what it is, food, family, friends, people in general, activities, physical, mental and emotional standards is, MODERATION. I know I am the only one who can supervise my wants, needs and cravings. By the time we are 19, we should have some grasp on that, I think, but yet not always. I believe it is because life can toss shit our way, that saying, the shit hit the fan? Its unexpected and can set you back, however, all we need to do is get back on track.
I love, hot dogs! So instead of eating 8 hot dogs, which includes the bun and the wiener.. (wink) there’s an inside joke with that statement.. lol..I will eat one a day for 8 days and voila, its out of my system. C’mon, think of it, 8 hot dogs in one sitting would make me puke, but one a day, makes me smile. The same goes for my favorite chocolate bar, Big Turk.  Too many in one sitting would make me sick, but one Big Turk a day, makes me happy with a little sugar high.
So now, you see the method to my madness. After 8 days of having what I love, is not an overload at all, but learning to live a life of moderation, so when the time comes again, in 6 months to a year when those cravings pop up, I will moderate myself and enjoy spoiling that craving for 8 days.
Life is too darn short to rob ourselves of the devilish desires and cravings. Live life to the fullest! Just do it in moderation. Yes, even with love. I can love long and hard, but yet again, I have learnt how to take a breather and give my partner a breather.  Then it seems not to be going stale or making us sick…lol…  we can love other with all our hearts and unconditionally, that does not mean we have to be by their side 24/7.. remember, too much of a good thing, is probably not such a good thing. 🙂
Now where is that hot, Big Turk and my Dream Man at this morning!

Honey!?, You wouldn’t have chocolate hidden some where in your house, eh? 😉