The other side of that cohesive exterior is an effete soul. A person who wants to be disciplined and not the disciplinary. A person who’s shoulders need to be eased of burdens and their face grasped for eye to eye contact, showing the lead. We are not meant to have one side, yet we can show only one, that side that marches through our days in control of every step, every decision, a perfect one that wins the crowds. Yet behind the door of our castle, we submit to another’s control, a new master, unlike our own, evens out our days and nights, to make each perfect, to make each something tolerated on the worse of days and anticipated on the best of days. That is control, that is self control and only you can dominate the mediocre Only you can possess the exceptional, the great, Inner self. So lick the lips of life, grab it by the hair, stimulating your deepest root, shedding light on your youthful soul.

My Abyss

by brookeshaden
Kahlil Gibran said…”Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.”

.. we all have our battles and crosses to bare. It is up to each of us, which battle we will fight and when we will lay down the cross. For many of us, pain is a part of our daily lives, mentally, physically or emotionally, yet it is also up to us how long and to what extent we will suffer. There is no one who can match my pain and there is no one who’s pain I can match. Our tolerance as individuals, varies, so there is no judging.
..how can I say when my battle started? My tolerance for pain was very high, or at least I thought it was, until one day, I broke and I could not carry that cross any more. It had taken it’s toll on my mind, body and soul.. It was time.. Time to break free from the ties that bound me. Time to let God save me. Oh believe me, that first step was the hardest. It was like I opened a door, only to see complete darkness on the other side of it, my abyss?.. I knew I had to have faith and take that step. That either I would fall to my death or be raised up by something or someone greater than myself…

It was the worse morning of my life
That day I decided
No longer was I to be your wife… ~ Cynthia
( written 5/10/2010..8am)

Stay Passionate

If you look back on history.. Passionate women were burned at the stake.. Yikes! Passionate means to be ruled by intense emotion or a strong feeling. More than likely a very sexual person with great desires and at the same time a passionate person can be moved to anger, be quick tempered.
When we read the definitions of being passionate, like everything else, like all the emotions one person can go through in a life time, its about controlling those emotions to make your life all it can be, emotionally.
So we tend to spread that passion out amongst different parts in our lives, whether it be creating something and being able to sell it to make a living, by showing how passionate we are with writing, poetry or books. Some show their passionate side by creating music. There is so many ways to show and flex our passionate side. When we get to that point in our lives, where they say, “ oh, he bought a new sports car.” or “ oh, she is dating younger men.” People call that Mid life crisis, when I think it is just searching for what they are passionate about because over the years they forgot how to be passionate and more times out of 10, the partner they were with, did not enhance the passion in the relationship.

“Not only is being passionate sexy it earns great respect.”- Unknown

No one likes to hear that another’s persons pain is caused by them, its not that someone was caused another persons grief, but they weren’t a positive force either Being passionate as a couple, in all aspects of being a couple, is something I think 2 people can create together and when you’re passionate about each other and each others wants and needs, there will be nothing that can come between you as a couple… not a sport scar of a younger lover because you found what brings out the best in you, was in front of you all the while or you will search till you find that person who appreciates your passion as much as you will appreciate thier passion.
So be passionate as one, create more passion as two and watch your world explode better than any romance novel could read!

❤ Love + Trust + Loyalty + Great Sex = an unbeatable relationship. Throw in Passion and Communication and you have it all. ♡ Magic. ♡

The Dark Side


The mind is a wonderful place. It believes what you want it to, even if it is not the truth. There are some things and some people, whether fact of fictional, that we may believe are good and some bad. However if we just don’t look on the good side, of course we will find the bad. Remember where there is light there had to be darkness.

I love my dark side. It actually keeps my light side happy, by not letting me be walked on and then my light side keeps my dark side calm, heaven help anyone who just got to waken only my dark side when my light side was sleeping. (wink)

But how does one know when the dark or the light is showing? With some people they have no self control over one of the other. It takes strength to calm the dark and to rejuvenate the light on a constant basis.

Do you think when Disney wrote about, Snow White & The 7 Dwarfs, he just used his light side?.. Nope. A young lady living with 7 men? Now how dark/bad/sinister/erotic, what ever you want to call it, is that? Snow White was not as white and pure as snow in the mind of Disney, I think.

There are people who are attracted to my light/good side and then others attracted to my dark/bad side..the funny part is I know both of those types of people wonder about the other side that they don’t admit attraction to.

Control is the key and no one knows where I hide my key.

–Is this the light or dark side of me?- 🙂


God Is Winking At You


“Think about when you were a kid and someone you loved gave you a little wink across the dining room table…Mom or Dad or Grandma.

You didn’t say, “What do you mean by that?” you knew it meant..”Hey kid, I’m thinking about your right now.”

 That’s what a Godwink is too: a message of reassurance from above, directly to you, out of six billion people on the planet, saying…

”Hey Kid..I’m thinking of you!

Keep the faith. You’re never alone.” – Squire Rushnell

What is A twelve-step program

Admitting that one CANNOT CONTROL one’s addiction or COMPULSION; recognizing a HIGHER POWER that can give strength; examining past errors with the help of a sponsor (experienced member); making amends for these errors; LEARNING TO LIVE A NEW LIFE WITH A NEW CODE OF BEHAVIOUR & HELPING OTHERS WHO SUFFER FROM THE SAME addictions or COMPULSIONS.


An irresistible impulse to act, regardless of the rationality of the motivation:

Compulsive behaviour involves an action that, on its own, is not physically addictive. It is defined as a behaviour that is conducted repeatedly due to a strong impulse – often against the best interest of the individual. The lack of a physical addiction separates this condition from alcohol and drug abuse/dependence, but compulsive behaviour can still be very harmful, and should not go untreated. The list of compulsive behaviours is wide-ranging, and can include any day-to-day activity that has become overpowering and destructive in an individual’s life. Compulsive behaviours are a recognized psychological condition in the mental health community, due to the frequency of the behaviour and the overall affect on quality of life.


People from all walks of life enter centers offering 12 step programs for addictions and compulsions. I truly believe one does not have to have an addiction to benefit from a 12 step program. So many people are suffering spiritually, which is showing itself in disruptive behaviours, in the young and younger, robbing them of inner peace and self sanity.

After a very trying time in my life, HE lead me to a place where I could see first hand what a person looks like physically and what they go through when their life’s are lead by addictions and compulsions. And the first shock of that is at intake which I did on Sundays, the Lord’s day, of all days, people looking to be saved from the greatest beast, the self. In need of learning how to tame that beast which we all have in us and learning how to treat it and live with it.

In a 12 step program, each step gets harder to take because you’re up against yourself, the person you can’t fool for too long before it shows in so many ways in your life..

*You will be

*Admitting that one cannot control one’s addiction or COMPULSION;

*Recognizing a HIGHER POWER that can give strength; examining past errors with the

help of a sponsor (experienced member);

*Making amends for these errors; learning to live a new life with a new code of behaviour;

*Helping others who suffer from the same addictions or COMPULSIONS.

The greatest part of working at this certain center was the fact it had the native culture embedded into the program, which even brought those seeking, spiritual soothing. We all can use spiritual soothing at some point in our lives, it’s just admitting we do and realizing we are not alone.

So it is all about getting back to the basics, living a spiritually calming life in a world that is in an uproar. Help to do so is out there, just ask.

Keeping ONE Eye Open


Do you know someone who sleeps with one eye open? Someone who is always looking over their shoulder? Someone who always does a double take on things? I don’t think that is such a bad thing. I won’t say they are paranoid, although many will, because I am one of those double taking, looking over my shoulder types myself. What’s the old saying, measure twice, cut once. And that is how I see or want to deal with things and people in my life. I have a little saying, that protects myself as well as you.. “Give me a second thought.”, meaning, usually what or who we think someone is, 50% of the time is wrong and more than likely your 2nd thought is more accurate.

I found a little write up in a spiritual blog that I want to share with you. Have a great day please and keep your peepers peeled, you never know what you may see.

On Keeping One’s Eyes Open

To get through this world, a man must look about him and even sleep with one eye open; for there are many baits for fishes, many nets for birds, and many traps for men. While foxes are so common, we must not be geese. There is a very great difference in this matter among people of my acquaintance: many see more with one eye than others with two, and many have fine eyes and cannot see a jot. All heads are not sense boxes. Some are so cunning that they suspect everybody, and so live all their lives in miserable fear of their neighbors; others are so simple that every knave takes them in, and makes his penny out of them. One man tried to see through a brick wall and hurts his eyes, while another finds out a hole in it and sees as far as he pleases. Some work at the mouth of a furnace and are never scorched, and others burn their hands at the fire when they only mean to warm them. Now, it is true that no one can give another experience, and we must all pick up wit for ourselves; yet I shall venture to give some of the homely cautions which have served my turn, and perhaps they may be of use to others as they have been to me.”