Free To Believe

Judgement is alive and well in the world today. No matter what you practice, whether you are among a minority or majority, if the masses or powers that be were taught at a young age something is not right, they truly believe it is not.

It takes years to empty ones head of old school thinking/methods/brainwashing, when their heart and soul believes in something else. Who is to say what is right or wrong?

Living in small town Canada, this is right in my face, truth. Being raised Catholic, I lived in a catholic religion world. I was afraid of “God”, I was afraid of the priest, I was afraid of talking out loud within the 4 walls of the church. I was so afraid to sin! I was afraid to eat before church on Sunday because I was told, you praise “God” on an empty stomach. Did “God” like the sounds of rumbling stomachs, as His followers knelt before the priest in the church on Sunday morning? As a young girl, these are the thoughts that would float through my little brain, as I stood, knelt and sat at my pew beside my elders. I couldn’t see anything from my pew, being as short as I was, as I am, but I could hear the rumbling stomachs, as well as the off key congregation singing , The Old Wooden Cross and smell the bad morning breaths hovering over my head. Funny thing is, with regards to the wooden cross, just a couple years ago, when I posted in my social media, a picture of Jesus, resembling, Carey Price, my Habs goalie with the slogan, “God Bless Jesus Price”, one of my followers, a practising Catholic was so insulted that I did and he made comment to just how insulted he was, that another follower responded to him,

“Put down the cross, we need the wood!”

The practising Catholic was so angry and the gent on a spiritual journey wasn’t. Why?And that gent was a believer in The Creator, ¬†on his journey of recovery, so it made me begin thinking more of this whole religion thing. Where was it leading me? \how and what roll was it playing in my life, positive, negative or at all?

What or who could I relate to, as an adult, free to pick my leader. lol And where do I want to be lead to? This is where my native culture began to play a greater part in my life and a pagan world I had began following years prior but let the teachings fall to the wayside. So I picked up where I left off.

Oh what a judgemental world we live in and how real that is when you follow a path of Wicca beliefs, paganism and the church of nature. I still have a long way to go, but what a beautiful inner peace I have gained. I don’t question my being, like I did for so long. I am perfect, just the way I am and so are you!

Believe in what you want, I won’t judge you or force upon you my beliefs, I ask for the same in return. There is the biggest challenge for us all. ūüėČ

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Summer Vacay!!

Sitting here sipping my 1st coffee, trying to think of a trip as a family we may have taken when I was a wee gal.. and my mind goes blank..because our parents didn’t spend that kind of money..they had 11 children! We were our own Disney Land, or circus freak show..lol..I think I will blame, things got tough when “they” came along, the 4 Little ones.. haha.. we couldnt afford to do anything then..lol..But I do recall being sent to bible camp ūüė¶ when we lived in Elliot Lake. Joey, my brother a year older than I,¬†was suppose to come with me, at the last minute he cried saying he didn’t want to go. Ohh I was mad. And Mom bought me 2 sets of pjs from Kresgees, flannel ones, to find they were too small when I went to wear a set my 1st night there. omg!!. And there was no such thing as cell phones. There was Emergency phone numbers on your application for the camp leaders only. So I was bored! but survived by tossing a big wad of bubble gum across the dark bedroom to land in the hair of the snotty blond girl in the bunk next to mine..I be bad.. she cried and the leader yelled out, who shot thid gum??!! I turned over and cried, because that was one of those moments I hated Mom for sending me away.. so I took my pencil I wrote on my bedsheet.. I hate you Mom!.. Didn’t matter, she wasn’t washing these sheets and wouldn’t see that..lol. I am not sure if my older brothers, Darcy, Geno or Joey went on any summer vacays or not. But at the end of the summer, we had memories, whether away from home or not. And now my children take their babes, my nuggets on summer vacays, making memories, as for toting along cell phones.. I wish everyone took one weekend away with their spouse and children..NO CELLS.. or electronics.. start listening to eachothers voices again, hear what they are really saying.. express like we use to do, with out loud belly laughs, screaming with laughter as you play tag, sing a song in the car as you motor along, introduce yourselves to the family in the camper parked next to yours at the campground.. go swimming! Just do stuff without the mechanics. Do you recall a vacay good or bad that you can share? Family or alone… as a child??

Blessed Be! So This Is Me!

My name is Cynthia. I don’t attend any church with doors, even though their doors are opened. I see many posts on WordPress and on Facebook,¬†regarding religion and how we should follow a certain path, whether it be catholic or another, how we need to praise and state AMEN, on many a posts. I have posted many of those myself over the years and believed what I was posting. I had a fear of that particular God and seen myself as a sinner, as someone lesser than the God I was praising. Well I am not.

I am as great as my God and my Goddess, for they do dwell within me. I as many do, don’t give their deities a name or associate them with any class or within a building. Because that would limit and inhibit a connection. Yet there are those that will find a particular deity (ies) to connect with that aids them along their spiritual journey. I attended 3 churches over the past few years and took from each which helped me on my journey, for that I am thankful for. I’ve learnt and learning, that I don’t need to bow to or bend on knees but to open my arms, to embrace my God and Goddess. I ask to be empowered and assisted so I can do things myself.

For myself and many others there is, Mother Goddess and Father God, a couple, because we don’t believe, He, nor Her, are single parents. I am still learning a lot and it won’t be learnt from A book, but from many teachings, from the Mother Earth and Father Sky. As this world/earth evolves every second of the day, so do I, as just one speck on it.

I believe there is no wrong or no right when it comes to our beliefs, but I do believe there is something truly wrong in this world when people use religion as a reason to commit the horrific crimes against, man, woman, child and the earth itself as a whole.

I could go on and on about my beliefs, but I just rather practice it in my daily life, I will never force my way of life upon anyone, yet there are those who feel inspired by it. It’s not a religion, being Spiritual,¬†it is a way of life, as you have heard before.

There are those among us who believe as I do, where we are connected to the earth. Those of us who feel grounded when close to the earth, the water, the skies, our God, our Goddess. My God is strong, our Goddess as strong and in many ways, you do witness the reawakening on this planet of the, Devine Feminine and that is why many notice the strength of women more so these past couple years or longer, because we are taking back our rightful position in this life, as in the spiritual life. To lead others on how to attend to our earth and all its inhabitants, to appreciate our home, this earth, as a whole! Blessed be!..

Morning Appreciation Prayer

I open my eyes to a new day
And whatever next will come my way
I will receive it with an open heart
Knowing that each day is a new start.
Open my eyes to the little things
Tickle my soul with feathery wings
Goddess and God, thanks for this day
Spirits and Angels, come my way
Joyous and free!~So mote it be!
Joyous and free!~So mote it be!

Going Where My Spirit Guides Me

Jesus was an enabler, according to all I have read since a child and seen in movies even as an adult. To die for His children who are evidently breaking every law in the book of life, every commandment that he wrote and Moses brought down off the mountain engraved in stone. Don’t you think, seriously, every man, woman and or child should have been punished for their wrong doing? When I come across graphics, readings that say, Jesus did not solely die on the cross, he died for me, Every drop of His blood was shed for me, every step, every humiliation, every strike, every whip, every mocking, every piercing nail, I was on his mind. So now I am to walk a guilty¬†road, the rest of my life? Is that not what we call a, martyrdom??,¬† a display of feigned or exaggerated suffering to obtain sympathy or admiration. Of course I cry at the movies, showing Jesus whipped, I am a woman with a compassionate heart, then when the dark clouds develop over head, and God his father is about to strike down man for hurting his son and Jesus says, forgive them father..¬† if I was his mother or father and seen my son being tortured and had to the power to strike down every living soul that hurt my child, don’t you¬†think I would?¬† I would, show me the red button!!! And if I was Mary, Mother of Jesus,¬† you don’t think I would have said over my tears, that I was crying at my sons feet, bleeding, nailed to the cross, by man.. have said to Jesus father, God, What the is wrong with you?? You let these men torture and kill our son??? What are you trying to prove and to who are you trying to prove what to??? Does that make God, a narcissist?? Which is a some one who is overly self-involved, and often vain and selfish. I am starting to believe the dysfunctional family was born and raised from the very beginning of time. The “D” family did not just develop over night. And now today, we have sociopaths,¬† psychopaths, murderers and thieves running around in such great numbers and we wonder why? Because at the cost of our own lives, we who were raised Christian, were taught, we need to forgive always and if it’s true to let the punishment fit the crime, why are those that sexual abuse children still living in our neighborhoods? Or those that rape and dismember women, still alive to pay a penalty? There is truly something wrong with this world today. Too many men/countries/groups, using religion as a reason to kill and degrade other people.
I am woman, a mother, a caregiver, a lioness.. my first impulse will always be to love and protect my children, from all predators in all forms, of any religion, sex, race, color or breed. And that includes wanting to protect your children as well.
If the bible is true, I think, Mary, should have, stood up to ALL men, even the father of her child who hurt him.. maternal mothers, all mothers have the natural-born instinct to do just that. Maybe then… if Mary would have died for her son… I would of gave the bible a 2nd chance, a 2nd glance or if Jesus’s father, God, would of died in battle for his son’s life, I would have believed what I was reading. But logic tells me, what happened back in the day, the years that Jesus was alive and well, up to the day he died on the cross, was all for what?.. for me?.. Sorry, I can’t believe that. I am not going to feel guilty for what man has done, what, “God” has done in his own name. When a woman walks into a catholic church asking for help, because her husband beats her and her children, and a priest says, “You go home, be a good wife, take care of those children.”.. I can’t believe in the Christian religion.

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I have begun more and more to lean towards and liking the beliefs and life style of the, Wiccan. Where I do not have a devotion to a deity, which means I find it so easy to not acknowledge the “God” of Christianity and Judaism and Islam, yet I am NOT hostile to any religion. For myself, I find the above 3 religions do promote a great amount of hostility towards others and there is so much ego present in the name of all 3.
I am going to continue to practice the state of being Wiccan spiritual and even with the little I have already learnt, I find a greater peace, inner peace, than I ever did in any church man-made, where I felt nothing but fear and guilt. I can not follow a religion or church that harbors those that sexual abuse children. And to this day, they still do.
Many years ago, I questioned how the biggest child abuser can still show his face in church, how another man, we all knew, that steals from the poor is able to attend church. I was told by an elder of that church.. “come sit in the front pew with the rest of the hypocrites.”.. Well sorry, I won’t and can’t and I am always vocal about that. And usually end up banging heads over it, because I am told to be quiet. Sorry, I can’t be quiet about protecting the innocent. And my beliefs grow strong and stronger, ever since I know what my father went through as a child.. he being a residential school survivor.
This is my choice and as much as you may not understand, without learning, about being a Wicca follower and leading a spiritual life, I too, will never understand why so many lead a life under a corrupt religious blanket, but I will still respect others and expect respect in return.
Being spiritual, I will NOT  bow or bend our knees to our gods, instead I open my arms, embracing them.

We do not beg them to do things for us, instead, we ask to be empowered and to assist us, so that we may do those things ourselves. The earth, the forest is our temple, and to the forest, under the stars is where we go to find our souls. Nature is my church. This is why I feel at calm by the water, walking a forest path, hearing births chirping in the morning. My belief is in the Creators, which is a God and a Goddess.
I am not going to teach anyone at this point, because I am still learning, so a thousand questions I can not answer. We all have our own journey while on this earth, we were born innocent of everything, and taught so much, good and bad. As adults we can make our own choices, I have made mine and continue to learn about this belief in something greater than myself and the great part is, again.. I have no fear on this path, I am gaining an inner peace beyond compare.
My life, my choice.. I will always seek serenity and love the serenity prayer, I will always pray, I just don’t say to which God or Goddess at that moment… equality is not just a word, it is an action, as is respect of this world, this earth as a whole..
I do hope you have inner peace with where you are in your life.. BLESSED BE!!

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Memorial Day In The Great U S Of A!

I am a day late, however it is never too late to praise the good!

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The soldier goes where his/her commander says to go. There is at times, comments made that have been twisted and fall into the wrong minds. Minds that provoke ignorance and disrespect against any person in the armed forces. There is a fine line between who we are and becoming what we actually are preaching against!

‚ÄúChristians can rest assured that being a soldier is highly respected throughout the Scriptures and know that such service is consistent with a biblical world view. The places and the titles may have changed, but our armed forces should be just as valued as the centurions of the Bible. The position of soldier was highly respected. Yes, the Bible does address serving in the military, directly and indirectly. The Christian men and women who serve their country with character, dignity, and honor can rest assured that the civic duty they perform is condoned and respected by our sovereign God. Those who honorably serve in the military deserve our respect and gratitude. Many centurions mentioned in the New Testament are praised as Christians, God-fearers, and men of good character (Matthew 8:5; 27:54; Mark 15:39-45; Luke 7:2; 23:47; Acts 10:1; 21:32; 28:16).‚ÄĚ ~ The Bible Has Answers

I truly wish the COMMON MAN would stop re-writing the Bible to suit their agenda.

May God Bless all soldiers who are serving and protecting ALL THE PEOPLES OF THE COUNTRY , from the presidents and prime ministers, all civilians and the first responders such as paramedics and police forces and even those that demean the soldiers duty! I know it is fact that any and all soldiers will be standing at the right hand side of God for putting their lives on the line to protect their fellow man, woman and child! – Amen!