As we age, we tend to think back on our lives and whether good or bad, we think about what got us to this exact moment. When I think back on my teen years, then the twenties, along came the thirties and all of the sudden we are in our forties, on the brink of the fifties, yet all those years before the forties passed by so quickly it seems now. Why is that? Is it because at the time we did not take the care in decision making? Or we trusted our natural instincts back then?
A long time friend of mine had this to say about me..
“ that you seem to have a strong need to pick apart things – shake them – hold them up to the light – taste – smell – see how they are fashioned – look for the flaws – the cracks – maybe where – two pieces don’t fit quite right”
I can not say that person is wrong in that observation about the way I handle things these days and after thinking about what was said, I have to agree fully. I can’t go jumping off buildings and I can’t be making on the spur of the moment decisions. I think now if just maybe I would of took the time in my younger years to as that friend says, had the strong need to pick apart things – shake them – hold them up to the light – taste – smell – see how they are fashioned – look for the flaws – the cracks – maybe where – two pieces don’t fit quite right ~ .. Just maybe I would of avoided a lot of heartache and bad choices. However we can not change the past or predict the future, all we can do is focus on today. I come across a pledge in a book I am reading and think it is so appropriate for this note. And words to read every once in a while.
My Promise To Myself
I promise to bust my vices, one at a time.
I promise to say my affirmations daily.
I promise to forgive myself for past wrongs
And realize that they have no bearing on my future.
I promise to take inventory of all of my positive
And wonderful qualities and think of them often,
Especially when I am tempted by any of my vices.
I promise to give myself the time that I need
To change a lifetime of unhealthy habits and
Not set unrealistic expectations.
By J. Havey