Trying harder on some days than others to be even a little light in some one else’s day gets exhausting, especially when so many are blind to the sparks of life. I made a vow years ago, to be that person, yet not make it my job to carry other people’s problems on my shoulders or even think I can fix them, because I can’t. It can be a very lonely world at times for people like me. And that statement alone will make others wonder what the hell does she mean, people like her? Well if you don’t know me by now, maybe you really are not suppose to know me at all? Even in my loneliness I find serenity. It is at those times we I recuperated and listen to the thoughts of the Creator to rejuvenate my soul, my spiritual self. There is so much I want to practice, yet time is short, days and years are quickly creeping by and I don’t really notice just how fast until it is my birthday again and again. Nothing and no one lasts forever on this planet, some things and people gone too early, or is the timing perfect with regards? With those thoughts, I learn not to take things for granted and live in the moment. My mind goes blank when people ask me about any future plans, again because I believe all we have is the here and now.
So I will take my lonely days to build back up my loss of faith, as days of grace. I will just listen to the sounds of Mother Earth, look for signs from the Creator and begin a new day once my heart is full once again, with a bounty to share.
Everything in it’s time and timing is everything. Remember, even feeling lonely is something to learn from, give it time.
The only thing I love about winter is watching the snow fall. It always inspired me, deeply. This morning I have been thinking a lot..lol.. it is my favorite past time… thinking, writing and of course loving. So many loves, grand baby love, my children love, family love, friendship love and 2nd to none, my Man love.. xx.. I like to think we have a mature love And, I don’t think Mature Love has anything to do with age. I think it has to do with, experience. We both have the integrity to be alone, which is being honest and whole together and apart. We both give without strings and grateful for that because we have different giving strengths. It is a love that when apart, our alone times does not destroy togetherness, in fact it enhances it. Yes, the first day or 2, I miss him so much, but on the 3rd day, I smile because I look forward to being together again. We help each other become more free. There is no effort given to dominating each other, we actually hop past that thinking, because it can become a sort of hatred and anger. We were individuals when we met and that is who we each fell in love with, so why not encourage that time alone, that individuality, which leaves so much more room to grow, alone and together. Who knows, there may be a day down the road where we will want to be in each others space so much more, but I think again, we are mature enough, that does not mean to smoother each other… respect, understanding and truly listening.. in one word.. Communication!
Yes, this is probably 90% the reason why I am still single. Sad but true. I truly believe like any addiction, that I may want it more than I need it and pretty much do what I need to, to keep it… my Solitude.
Are you, am I addicted to Solitude?
1. Ask yourself if you are addicted to Solitude.
2. Starting the day wishing you had someone special in your life & thankful at the end of the day you have no one.
3.When You Spend Way Too Much time obtaining solitude, being embroiled in the behaviors of , or recovering from your addictive behavior.
4.When the intensity or frequency of being alone has increased in order for you to get the desired effect of solitude.
5.Feel totally resentful that others may get to engage in solitude and that couple status at the same time when you cannot.
6. When you are with someone, all you can think about is being alone.
7.If you are blaming your need to be alone or behavior on other people or circumstances.
8.If the behavior of wanting to be alone is causing problems in your life. Such as leaving a gathering with many to go home and enjoy solitude.
~ You or I, just may be addicted to Solitude!
By Snowy Impressions