My Depression ~ My Faith

from years ago.. time changes everything.. as does ones faith

SNOWY IMPRESSIONS

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We are not always lucky to lead grounded lives. I don’t know what the percentages are but I think the odds of all of us going thru trying times in our lives is pretty high. And if you talk to most people who have overcome the hardships, most have said it was when they started to have Faith.

Faith in something greater than themselves. No one has to walk the rough roads alone, but we will walk it and when we get to the crossroads, some do take the one that has to do with FAITH or the other, which some never return, SUICIDE and then there is the one of DENIAL, where a person says they are okay, but their actions say so much more and the last one is where a person chooses to keep wondering down the road of SELF DESTRUCTION, with drugs and alcohol.

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I Don’t Recall

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“It’s like riding a bike, you never forget.”

I don’t believe that quote anymore, as I age.

There is many things I don’t recall how to do or what I did to achieve a positive outcome. Timing is every thing, it helps us forget and helps us remember. I ask a lot of questions of friends and family (Mom use to call me a, Question Box) and a lot of the time, the answer is, “I don’t remember.”

And what about the  younger generation?  Who think they know everything. I think I have forgotten more than they know, I just don’t recall half of what I know.

Memories are an important part of my life, I don’t live in the past, but I don’t want to forget it either. Because Mom had dementia and I do recall her frustration when she could not recall something.  So, I will keep talking, asking questions and probing for answers. I love google!!..lol…

Keep sharp, be that 2 year old who constantly ask questions. You never know what you could learn, if you listen. But that is another subject, eh?. 😉

Where was I going with this

He Forgot To Say I Love You

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11 yrs ago this month, a great man left this earth…My Father..Eugene D. Solomon. Dad wrote me a letter before that year, explaining why and apologizing for not expressing the words..I love you…to me as a child. I did not take his apology serious…until…after his passing, he come to me through a medium. Now some may say its all hocus-pocus,  however I never met or knew of this mediums existence before that day. She said, your father stands behind you (described him in detail) with a small dog in his arms, your dog and with a sad face he said he apologizes for taking your dog away. (he also related other details that no one but he and I would know about). Yes, that was my dog and yes this time, I accepted his apology for all the wrongs and accept to this day all the love he shares with me as my Guardian Angel with each breath against my cheek before I go to sleep..my father whispering the words, I love you. His personal best was what I received as a child and his unconditional love now, into eternity. Take no one for granted! This is the day of a new beginnings, don’t waste the season, live in the now and love every waking moment!!!

Moderation In A World Of Mayhem!

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By the light of her cell phone, she rolls over in her bed, reading the newsfeed of her favorite social media site, as the clock, tic tocks on the night stand beside her bed.

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If you own a cell phone, I imagine this has been a scene in your life at some point. I joined the cell phone crowd about a year ago. I tossed the land line and began carrying my life in my right hand pocket, which included, everyone else in my life as well. With all the bells and whistles that go with, someone posting on my social media sites, or someone texting me, calling me and tagging me, 24/7!!

STOP!!.. Make the world go away and get it off my shoulders. Ha!, sounds like a song to me. But it is a point I did reach after a few months of owning a cell phone. I needed silence and time to unwind. So by 9pm nightly, you, the world is silenced. I set the cell phone to silent, very low light, flip it over and take a deep breath as I lay my head on my pillow.

But, what if there is an emergency? How will we reach you? Well, come and knock on my door or send some one close by to knock on it. You were able reach me before I got the cell phone, you still can.

Some people, most people, have excuses why they can’t silence their cell, but few have a legit reason, because there probably is not one. As for me, I am not here to judge, yet more than likely, I get a better nights sleep than you and wake refreshed in the morning. 🙂 I have always found it easy to detach from things, people included, even though my will power is not strong. As weird as that is, it does work for me.

It’s 630am, time to start a new day, bright eyed and bushy tailed! Oh, now where is that cell phone? So I can see and read what you’ve been up to for the last 8 hours. 😉

Have a great day!

I Respect My Privacy

Good Monday Morning! My thoughts for today..no one knows what goes on behind close doors. Which is a good thing at times, unless there is abuse taking place. With all these social media sites, the word privacy is just that.. a word.. letters cut out of wood, sitting on the ledge of an open window, the breeze flipping the curtains, leaving a slight view of the life of the person(s) within. Learning that “everything” does not need to be communicated on social media shuts the door on the negatives, such as the “silent sabotage” and “nosey Nellies”. The best part is how, positive communication, will play a bigger part in your life. When loved ones, friends and or family, take the time to reach out, to communicate, in private, as do you. And those relationships remain strong or get stronger. Then there is the positive side of sharing, that comes from growth, which occurred, when a person shares what it took to overcome an issue, whether it be, physical, mental or emotional. Those are the people who write self help books or blogs for to help others overcome not so good experiences.

So todays lesson is about respecting your own privacy, because if you don’t, who will?

Stopping By At AA

No one stronger than a recovering addict. So why not follow their steps?

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It’s Sunday! My day of processing so many thoughts and yes at times I do overthink things. Thank goodness I don’t share all those things with you, your head would be spinning on a daily basis.. lol ..I don’t mind my way of thinking, it has gotten me to a point in my life that I am comfortable with. I have picked and tossed things aside, let go of relations that did not bring some kind of joy to my life. Of course we all have our bad days, no life is perfect, yet it is a joy to be around people that take responsibility of their lives and do their own personal best to make it better, gaining a certain serenity and peace of mind.
One of the things, that has helped me over the years, was working at the 12 step rehab center. A place that you can…

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Moderation Is Key!

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I am one of those people, well, maybe I am only the one of the people I am talking about.. lol.. I doubt that. I don’t feel I am unique in every way and the way that I am unique, I won’t tell you about, that my friend, is what makes me unique. There are some things I do not need the approval of being, by any one, on this planet. So I have that little bit of mystery, which I think we all should have, mystery.
I have learnt over the years, the thing to enjoying life, no matter what it is, food, family, friends, people in general, activities, physical, mental and emotional standards is, MODERATION. I know I am the only one who can supervise my wants, needs and cravings. By the time we are 19, we should have some grasp on that, I think, but yet not always. I believe it is because life can toss shit our way, that saying, the shit hit the fan? Its unexpected and can set you back, however, all we need to do is get back on track.
I love, hot dogs! So instead of eating 8 hot dogs, which includes the bun and the wiener.. (wink) there’s an inside joke with that statement.. lol..I will eat one a day for 8 days and voila, its out of my system. C’mon, think of it, 8 hot dogs in one sitting would make me puke, but one a day, makes me smile. The same goes for my favorite chocolate bar, Big Turk.  Too many in one sitting would make me sick, but one Big Turk a day, makes me happy with a little sugar high.
So now, you see the method to my madness. After 8 days of having what I love, is not an overload at all, but learning to live a life of moderation, so when the time comes again, in 6 months to a year when those cravings pop up, I will moderate myself and enjoy spoiling that craving for 8 days.
Life is too darn short to rob ourselves of the devilish desires and cravings. Live life to the fullest! Just do it in moderation. Yes, even with love. I can love long and hard, but yet again, I have learnt how to take a breather and give my partner a breather.  Then it seems not to be going stale or making us sick…lol…  we can love other with all our hearts and unconditionally, that does not mean we have to be by their side 24/7.. remember, too much of a good thing, is probably not such a good thing. 🙂
Now where is that hot, Big Turk and my Dream Man at this morning!

Honey!?, You wouldn’t have chocolate hidden some where in your house, eh? 😉